told Cody I loved him tried to console him and told him to please stay safe before sleeping (I actually did this I think this dream was anxiety coming out) and then he woke me up from a dead sleep in the middle of the night to tell me he relapsed on molly/xanax and that he self harmed had multiple times, I got upset and went outside bc I was upset and needed to feel better and then the dream kinda changed into something else, I fell asleep sorta and then my roommates would both come like attack me in my bed but it was so I could prove something or take care of a problem, and at one point my mom kept calling me repeatedly saying that this is why we don’t care about you, this is why you’re a failure, you deserve to be homeless and ur father and I will never be proud of you for anything, also at som e point like rape and murder that wasn’t on me but I was close watching and could feel somehow idk- whole dream made me feel scared, sad, hated, depressed, triggered, etc
This dream seems to be reflecting deep-rooted anxieties and fears that you may be experiencing in your waking life. The dream could be triggered by feelings of helplessness, guilt, low self-worth, and emotional turmoil.
The first part of the dream, where you express love and concern for someone who relapses and self-harms, could symbolize feelings of responsibility for others' well-being and a sense of powerlessness in helping them. The feelings of fear and sadness in this part of the dream may represent your own emotional vulnerability and struggles.
The second part of the dream, where your roommates attack you but it is for a purpose, could symbolize inner conflicts or challenges that you are facing. This could indicate a need to confront and overcome obstacles in your waking life, even if it feels overwhelming or aggressive.
The part where your mother criticizes and belittles you could signify feelings of inadequacy or pressure to meet others' expectations. This may reflect unresolved issues or negative emotions related to your relationship with your mother or your sense of self-worth.
The elements of rape and murder in the dream could represent feelings of violation, powerlessness, or witnessing disturbing events that are beyond your control. It may suggest a need to process and address past traumas or fears that are resurfacing in your subconscious.
Overall, this dream may be a manifestation of your inner struggles, fears, and unresolved emotions. It could be helpful to explore these feelings further, perhaps through therapy or journaling, to gain insight and work towards healing and self-acceptance.